crystal's little corner

i'm super pleased to announce that there is a giveaway coming down the pipes on my blog.. stay tuned - hopefully tomorrow i'll announce!

last summer, while struggling through the grief over losing my beautiful baby girl, i came across  facesofloss.com .  this amazing website got me through some dark days. it helped me know that i wasn't alone and gave some great information and resources.  they also have a facebook page, which, although i don't participate in actively, i still follow in case i am having "one of those days". yesterday, i noticed a post saying that the girls who run the site were looking for volunteers to act as admins to post stories, etc.  without hesitation, i sent them an email and offered to help out.  once school starts, it'll just be me & the c-man here, so i figure i'll be able to take some time and do what's needed. they were so helpful to me when i needed it most ,that i am so thrilled to be able to pay it back to them by doing this small amount of work for them.  i hope any of you moms who may follow my blog, who have suffered from miscarriage, sti...

i've been up since 245 am.  i wish the sandman was real and could make my kids sleep for more than 1 hour at a time. my house is in shambles, i want a shower, groceries & maybe a massage.  is there such a thing as fairy godmothers? this is the life of a mom struggling to find balance with my new life as a mom of 2.  just 2.  how do you mommas of 3 or 4 do it?  you are all my heroes.  cuz as of 6 am, i was ready to run away from home.   i know it sounds like i'm complaining, but i'm not.  i'm thankful for every minute i have with my boys, even if they are trying out chinese torture techniques like sleep deprivation.  i love their smiles, hugs, and love watching the dynamics of brothers.  i cannot wait to see what the future brings them.  i know that if they are crying, or not sleeping, or arguing with me, that at least they are here to do those things. 

i have the cutest boys EVER.

soo, tomorrow i'm taking wedding photos for a wonderful, old friend. i am trying to pull together some ideas of must have shots.. what are yours?

I lost 3.5 lbs this week! I guess it worked.

i'm having a super hard time getting back on the weight loss train.  two pregnancies in the course of 2 years left me pretty much eating whatever i want and being lazy on the exercise thing.  so, i started tracking again, using  loseit , and trying to walk and do some wii fit. tonight i tackle an athletic training course in tantallon. wish me luck, i'm afraid for my life.

the rain that's been persisting for weeks (someone, tell me, when did i move to seattle??!), has moved out for the weekend and left behind a beautiful, sunshiny saturday!  and, instead of being on the beach, or doing something fun with my boys outside, i'm playing nursemaid to my #1 son who has caught a summer cold.  so, it's a day of OJ, chicken soup, DS & movies for him today. however much it sucks that i'm not outside enjoying the day, tonight when hubs gets home from work, i'm strapping on the ipod and going for a kid free walk.  i can't even begin to tell you how excited i am about that prospect.  it also means i can get caught up on some much needed housework.  for anyone who knows me, you all know how crazy i'm getting living without the laundry done every day, floors done, and bathrooms clean.  LOL! i've also started getting back to basics on the weight loss thing.  journalling, meal planning & trying to squeeze in exercise whenever...

wow.  didn't think i'd be saying this so soon.. but i miss work.  i miss the customers, my co-workers, the challenge of working retail, all of it.  most of all i miss the grown up conversation! i never had any problems when i was off with alex.  but this morning i had a total mental break. i can sense a bit of something lingering... post partum?  some remnants of whatever depression set in after jenna?  a bit of guilt (more on that later...)?  i don't know.  but i'm not a happy momma these days.  however, as sad and lonely as i feel, i know that i'm doing the best thing for my boys and their beautiful faces and smiles let me know that everything i do for them is worth it.