Gimme a break!
I was chatting with a friend and co-worker today about life.. how overwhelmed and unhappy I am. She very nicely told me to give myself a break. We are living in a new, uncertain world. Take a minute. Reflect on everything. Give yourself a minute. You aren't expected to "breeze through all this shit". So today, I went for a walk. I worked out. And then I meditated. I have never been one to do any of these things on a regular basis. A walk, sure. But I get bored ten seconds in. So today, I put on some kind of "positivity" podcast and trekked for 20 minutes or so. I felt ... ok. Silly, but ok. On my lunch break, I did a 20 minute workout. It challenged me. It made me feel more focused when I went back to my work for the afternoon. This made me appreciate it a little more. I could see this becoming a more regular occurrence. Then I meditated. This. This is scary. I have no interest in being along with my own thoughts for so long. But a man