Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Day 2.

I may do these slightly out of order, depending on how the day goes. 

Because I inhaled my supper tonight after kickboxing class, I'm jumping ahead to "a photo of an animal you'd love to have as a pet"

I want a dog.  Nothing exotic. Nothing crazy.  I just don't have a stable enough lifestyle yet.  But some day... I'll have a puppy.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Day 1. Me.

Challenge day #1. 

The day started with little boy and momma snuggles. Hot coffee. A busy day at the office. Then; I come home to face the chaos that is my home life.  

Quite honestly I'm feeling overwhelmed by life these days. So, as a wise man told me, one bite at a time...  I took the evening to detail my car. Something about having one small aspect of my life clean and organized makes me feel better.

After that, I made myself a really delicious, healthy supper. Poured a glass of wine and put my feet up.  Not such a bad day for the most part. 

And feeling cute at work today. I love fall. Sweater dresses and leggings! 

Monday, October 16, 2017

Challenging Myself...

In an effort to rekindle my blog, and get myself back into the idea of writing more frequently, I'm challenging myself to a 30 day writing challenge. 

A little way for those of you who don't know me that well to learn more, and if you are someone who knows me outside of blog world, just maybe you'll learn a little something new.  Thanks for coming along for the ride :)

Thursday, October 12, 2017

Written Therapy

This blog has been a source of great therapy for me in the past... through the stress of a new marriage, a new baby, the death of my daughter, and then the birth of yet another boy... And now, the end of that marriage.  And learning how to parent those babies on my own.  Here's what I've learned in the last 2 years of being on my own.

My marriage fell apart.  It was not one person's fault.  There were so many contributing factors.  We both made mistakes.  We both grew up and in different directions.  We were adult enough to know that we were in a toxic place and it was not a good spot for either of us to be.

I'm raising 2 boys the best way I know how.  Some days are easier than others, some days are full of stress, anger & chaos.  But at the end of every day, there is so much love between the 3 of us, that my heart - even on my darkest days - is completely full.

I know that leaving an unhappy relationship was the right decision.  At the end of the day, I have zero doubts in my mind that I made the right decision.  Am I lonely?  Sometimes.  But you know what? I'm surrounded by people who love me all the time - my children, my family, a wonderful group of friends who no matter how sad I am sometimes always have my back. I'm truly blessed.  Although sometimes I forget that.

Its easy to get lost in the "fifth wheel" syndrome.  I have been having a hard time wanting to do things with my friends sometimes because they are all coupled up, and it's no fun being the one at the table without a partner. And because my friends are the amazing people they are, they don't see me as that tag along. They see me as me.  The same me I always was. Maybe a little more jaded, and some days, a complete train wreck.  But they love me regardless.  

I've recently started dating again.  It's a totally different ball game then I ever expected.  I've met some really great people along the way, and learned alot about what I should, and do deserve.  I won't settle for less than best this time.  I know who I am, and what I want, and that's alot different than what I knew when I was 20.  I want fireworks.  And butterflies.  I want my heart to skip a beat when he walks in the room.  I want someone who will accept and love my kids like they are his own.  I want to go on crazy adventures.  But mostly?  I want happy.

That my friends is where I am.  Where I've been.  I keep saying, and thinking, that I am going to get back to myself.  Back to what I love to do.  Starting this blog again is a step in the right direction.  I'm sure that some days this is going to get heavy.  Other times, it may be an idea I've pulled from mid air, or perhaps it will share the tale of a date gone horribly wrong.  Who knows.. maybe it will turn into a magical love story.

Until next time... stick with me.  I promise I'm going to do my best to do more writing and less crying.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

helping families in need.

If anyone is interested in donating toys for a toy drive, please let me know! A Few of us from our Mommy & Baby playgroup are arranging a mini toy drive. Pick up/drop off needs to be arranged before December 8, in order to be dropped off to the Second Story Women's & Children's Centre before their programming wraps up before Christmas. We can accept new, unwrapped toys, or used linens & clothing for people of all ages.

Please help us make the holidays a bit brighter for families in need! Thanks :)

Please contact me with any questions!

Monday, November 28, 2011

let the festivities commence :)

this past weekend, i went to moncton for an annual event - christmas at the coliseum.  mom, marilyn & i go every year... it seems to be what kicks off the holidays for us :)  this year, we brought along carter who was a hit with the ladies at the sale.  i'm sure at least half of the 5,000 people who were there on saturday morning told me how perfect he is.  duh! :)  i picked up a couple of things at the sale, and a few more things during the stops we made on the way home.  it seems like now, i can get my head into the holidays.  the grinch is on tonight, lights are going up wednesday.

oh - and just for the monthly challenge -
saturday, i let someone go ahead of me in line to pay for tickets to get into the sale'
sunday, i told the ladies who take care of my nan in the nursing home how much i appreciate what they do;
today, i bought a box of timbits and gave them to the kids playing at the park.

Friday, November 25, 2011

one month project ;)

Today marks one month until Christmas Day.  In the spirit of the season, and in teaching my son that there is more to the holidays than receiving, I am embarking on a month long project of doing at least one random act of kindness each day.  This is also going to get me back in blogging form!

Day One - I am donating breastmilk to a family in need :)