What Next?

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I feel totally lost these days lately. 

I love my kids and my partner.  But I’m lost.  In a house full of people I feel lonely.  I don’t know even how to explain it. 
Life’s busy. Chaotic.  I’m exhausted. To the bone. 

Looming is a big milestone. My 40th birthday.  Our first Christmas without my mom.  Health issues for my dad who just spent 2 weeks in the hospital. 

And through it all?  I’m the constant. I’m the caretaker.  And I’m literally lost at wondering who’s going to take care of me when I break? 

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