the masks we wear
It's been a week of not so great news. Too much sadness, chaos, and worry. It's easy to get lost in thoughts of what is wrong, what could go wrong. And with all of this, as you might be able to tell from my previous posts, it sends my head spinning in 20 different directions.
Yesterday at work, someone told me that they always looked forward to seeing me come through their office door, because I always had a smile on my face. That I was able to brighten their day. This got me thinking - do I come across as fake? Lately, I'm generally ok with where things are with life. My kids are happy & healthy. I have a wonderful circle of friends. I've met a great guy, who I'm slowly letting in.
But yet with all these positive things, there is always an undertone of sadness. Anxiety. Stress. I'm the type of person who tends to expect the worst. Maybe by expecting the worst, I'm not disappointed as often. Yet, I apparently still keep this brighten your day type of smile on my face.
My philosophy is if I'm smiling, maybe people can't see my tears.
What kind of mask do you wear?
Yesterday at work, someone told me that they always looked forward to seeing me come through their office door, because I always had a smile on my face. That I was able to brighten their day. This got me thinking - do I come across as fake? Lately, I'm generally ok with where things are with life. My kids are happy & healthy. I have a wonderful circle of friends. I've met a great guy, who I'm slowly letting in.
But yet with all these positive things, there is always an undertone of sadness. Anxiety. Stress. I'm the type of person who tends to expect the worst. Maybe by expecting the worst, I'm not disappointed as often. Yet, I apparently still keep this brighten your day type of smile on my face.
My philosophy is if I'm smiling, maybe people can't see my tears.
What kind of mask do you wear?
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