tears & laughter

there were a few tears today.  my friend and her daughter went with alex & i to the cemetary.  i've been doing alot of thinking about angels, and signs from heaven.  maybe it's what people do when they so desperately need something to show them that their loved one is around.  i'm more apt to notice a butterfly, or a rainbow.  today was no exception.  eve & i were sitting at jenna's stone, sharing some tears, and our kids were chasing a butterfly around the stone.  all i could think was, that's gotta be her way of playing with her brother.  we got in the car to come home, and there was a butterfly, flying around my window.  came home, there was another one, dancing in my front yard.  could it be? 

after sharing jenna's headstone with her, eve felt comfortable enough to ask to see a picture of jenna.  she actually ended up going through the whole memory box.  we were both crying by the time we were finished, but it was nice to be able to share all of her with a wonderful friend.

so that was the teary part of the day.. now on to the laughter:

as most of you probably don't know, this blog started out being a healthy living blog.  i was really bad at keeping up with it, especially since i was really bad at staying on plan.  since i started going to TOPS back in 2007, i have now lost 20 pounds, and am only 5 pounds away from the doctor's appointed goal for me.  so, there's been lots of walking, wii fit, and playing with my kid.  tonight i joined a zumba class with my sister in law.  lots of fun... latin dance, combined with some cardio and great music.. and a ton of laughs.  it was a great way to shut my brain off for an hour, and i wish it was more than just once a week!!