a new month

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time to look forward. sometime this month, i would expect to see jenna's headstone arrive, and i need to get past my due date of the 20th. other than those two things, it's all about moving forward. the doctor called on friday with news on the autopsy. nothing unexpected, so it was definitely a cord accident that robbed us of our girl. the good news is that there should be nothing from preventing us from trying again. i have to call him tomorrow to confirm all of this, but at least nothing genetic was to blame. i can't wait to try again for another baby, i just want to make sure that when we do start trying that we try to plan so that we aren't expecting around either jenna's birthday or due date.

i'm so thankful to have set this blog up. its been a great source of comfort for me to be able to put my words out there, without having to worry about upsetting people around me. i fiind that talking about what happened is very helpful. i don't want to forget how i felt after some time goes by, and by writing it down, i can look back on these days, good & bad and remember how excited we were for jenna's arrival, and our sadness when she was taken away.

i hope that if anyone out there is still following this blog that you don't mind the direction i've taken with it. i'm a long way from what i started out doing, which was to track my weight loss journey but life has taken a different path for us right now.

thank you for listening.

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