more beaching

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today i had a crappy morning. another call from the obs clinic, a couple more sympathy cards, and in the mail, a brochure from a support group here in bridgewater for mother's who have lost children. i wondered all along if there was a support group, and now that i have the information, i don't know if i can face going to one. makes it seem that much more real. that seems silly, but maybe i'm just not brave enough to put a strong face on and go in and discuss things with a bunch of strangers.

after i spent the morning crying, i picked up and left for the beach again. thank goodness for good weather. alex loves being at the beach because he can play, and i feel so much better when i'm there. i always have loved the beach, and this seems to be a huge part of my healing. it's just too bad that every time i go to the beach i'm surrounded by pregnant women and baby girls.

after coming home from the beach we went and looked at a house. it's just across the street from mark's parents house, with 3 bedrooms, 2 baths, and a huge kitchen. im really hoping all goes well and we get it. then, we had dinner with my sister in law and her hubby, and then i went for a nice walk. besides the beach, walking and music have become my therapy.

i feel a bit like i'm rambling today. but it's the best way for me to get my emotions out there. i never was much for keeping up with my blog, but what an outlet. i know i've said it before but i'm SO glad that i have it.

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