another milestone

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i got my maternity photos back today. we had them taken on july 7th. it was only a couple of hours later that we learned we had lost jenna. the photos are all gorgeous, and i'm thrilled to have them as a memento. however, the irony hit me that as the 3 of us posed for all these photos with smiling faces, my sweet girl was slowly dying inside me. breaks my heart.

they are too beautiful not to share at least one, so i will leave you with that today.

photo taken by: heidi frausell
http://www.hfphotography-heidi.blogspot.com/

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Renee said…
Oh, this is too sad not to comment on. I'm sorry for you and your family. Just found your blog this evening.
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