crystal's little corner

 I’ve been doing alot of thinking lately.  2020 has been an ass kicker.  I’m ready to move on.  I was scrolling Pinterest in my perpetual can’t sleep state.  I came across a “how to build social media” schedule.  Not that I need to build my profile.  I could honestly care less if people read this. This is mostly just written therapy.  Although... if you’re a reader, I’d love you to message or comment and let me know!! So. Back to the schedule.  I  going to take this. Modify it.  Make it work for me.  Then I’m going to find a groove.  On my blog. In my online presence. In my real life.  So if you know me in real life, you might learn more then you expected.  If you’re just finding me. Settle in.   I’ve decided 2021 is the year to focus on me.  ♥️

I feel totally lost these days lately.  I love my kids and my partner.  But I’m lost.  In a house full of people I feel lonely.  I don’t know even how to explain it.  Life’s busy. Chaotic.  I’m exhausted. To the bone.  Looming is a big milestone. My 40th birthday.  Our first Christmas without my mom.  Health issues for my dad who just spent 2 weeks in the hospital.  And through it all?  I’m the constant. I’m the caretaker.  And I’m literally lost at wondering who’s going to take care of me when I break?