crystal's little corner

as some of you may know, i opted not to join a face to face support group when we lost jenna.  i couldn't bear the idea being that "newbie" in the group.  so, i found an amazing group of women via facebook, and am so glad that i did. s.o.b.b.s. is currently undertaking a huge project, which is to mail out "mom of an angel" bracelets in personalized envelopes to their members, who in turn distribute them to hospitals, etc., for new moms of angels, to let them know they are not alone, and to point them in the direction of our group.  in order to do this, every package costs $25 US to mail (we are currently shipping to US, Canada, Australia, and many more countries to raise awareness!).  in order to help alleviate some of the costs, members of the group have been asked to create a website which gives a little info about us, and try to help with fundraising. please take a moment to visit my page:  http://www.sobbsstoriesofbabiesbornstill.com/participant/1065  

it's hard to believe how quickly time can slip away.  i've not been as frequent at blogging as i was last year, but i find that with being back to work, family, and the constant worry that i feel with this pregnancy, i just dn't have as much time to sit down and let things go. currently 19 weeks pregnant.  i have my ultrasound on monday, which is awesome that i'm gonna get to see this little gummy bear on valentine's day!  we've decided not to find out the baby's gender (unless it's too obvious to miss on the screen), and i'm ok with that decision.  i'm having a hard time with the pregnancy, because the baby doesn't do a ton of kicking, etc, through the day and i only notice it for about an hour in the evening.  it echoes of the way jenna was while she was in my belly.  i don't know how many times i had told the doctors that she was a "lazy baby". i find that my grief doesn't consume me as much as it once did.  my days a